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I’m back. oh wait, I live here. sorry, forgot. my mind has been weird like that all week.

ok my friends I am kicking myself in the ass to get me going on finding a job. I will make some calls today and see what happens, if anything. with the extra long recovery time I have had, I have slowly slipped into a place and into a person I do not like very much. I NEED to get back to working again.. gain my self worth back and swim in my own confidence. they are things which I need in my life.

it’s pitiful that I have felt SO depressed that I don’t EVEN wanna be with ME. I actually did try to run away from myself but I caught up. much too quickly, I will add. where ever I go, there I am. that just made me smile, as that is a poster I bought a dear friend years ago, as she was like a sister to me.. and she is an alcohol and drug counselor and that was her fave saying. it’s such a cute picture by Mary Englebright.

NO, we did not watch the super bowl. however, we did watch several hours of the “puppy bowl” on the animal planet channel. it was SO freeking cute.. it’s all puppies pretending to be football players and during halftime, it’s kittens.. we watch it every year. there’s a ref who is nearby and will throw red and yellow cloths into the puppies for fowls of being too cute or nipping, or tackling.. it’s just so creative and adorable.

well it’s late of course.. I need to get to bed. tomorrow’s another day in paradise, as Phil Collins would say. goodnight friends.. thank you for caring about me and being supportive. it really does mean more than I can tell you.

g’nite.

C