"...wE mUst bE thE chAnGe wE wiSh tO sEE iN thE wOrld..." K.G.

2/01/2011

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..sometimes when i think everything is going well

BQQM!

it hits me right between the eyes.

just like that.

I am no longer in the little bubble of content and hope that i have been residing in..

i have been hurled out into space and left to fend for myself.

that is how it feels to be me right now.

not enough oxygen.

fear.

grief.

worry.

did I say worry?

and helpless. that lovely little feeling that intensifies all reasoning and doubt.

nobody really cares because when it all boils down to it, I am alone.

all I CAN do is take myself to bed and sleep.

and hope that tomorrow is a better day.

C

11 comments:

Dysfunctional Mom said...

Unfortunately, I know exactly how you feel.
I hope tomorrow is indeed a better day.
xoxo

ChiTown Girl said...

Oh, my sweet friend, what is going on!?! Email me!!!

Busy Bee Suz said...

How could YOU be alone?
I hope things are better today....
xoxoxo
Suz

Jim said...

Chris, tomorrow will be a better day!!! It ALWAYS is. Got to have these days to fully appreciate the 'bad' days.....which NEVER last forever. Hang in there and go get em Tiger!!!!

sophie...^5 said...

Listen to your blog friends..we know what's best for everyone right! Sleep my dear, sweet sleep!

sophie...^5 said...

PS..I hope you don't mind me borrowing one of yer emoticons from photobucket....you got a ton of them eh!?

jo.irish.rose said...

toone, see? today is better already!! i just spoke to you and all is beter...so pick up your chins and wipe you lil noses....and eyes, and put on your big girl pants...wait...that was for the grand kids...left over from this morning...but it could work for you too. lol but things did get better today, you just had to wait, a lil...and there...all is well. for a bit, anyway. i love you, and as soon as i can, i will be coming out. k? something to look forward to. kisses.....

Tracey Axnick said...

Hello my friend... just checking in on you.. making sure you're not buried in a snow drift somewhere.... all the talking heads on the news have said "it's bad out there folks!"

I hope you are WARM and SAFE and COZY inside!

Technodoll said...

Hoooo! whoa!

WTF happened?

Are you all right??

Don't make me come out there and bring you flowers, woman! You are NOT alone, you are NEVER alone. Quit that!

Now, take a deep breath, hug your wife and the dogs and the kids, and let me know if I can do anything for you.

OK mon amie?

(( bisous ))

greg said...

Then someone comes along and helps you to remember that you aren't alone. That's the way it goes. I think we all understand perfectly. Bad days have their levels of bad & yours sounds like one of the worst. I hope it has gotten much better for you. Hugs to you, C.

xoxo

Technodoll said...

Waiting for news...

Worried about my sweet friend :-/