"...wE mUst bE thE chAnGe wE wiSh tO sEE iN thE wOrld..." K.G.

8/23/2010

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i was just looking up random people from my past on face book and i think i may have found my molester's 2 kids! ohmygod. i sent messages and am waiting for a reply. they still live in New Britain, CT. it has to be them.

i don't know how i feel about the whole thing. i know they were victims too, of that bastard... part of me wants to scream at them "do you know what your fucking father did to me?" but of course i would never.. it sure wasn't their fault, they were abused too. and i respect the fact that they may not remember or may not ever wanna talk about it.

wow. this is really weird. my heart is racing at even the thought that he might still be alive... and i could possibly get retribution from the bastard. maybe he's in jail because i am sure he didn't stop after me, i hope he got caught somewhere down the line.

this is big, peeps... really big for me. it ties right in with the healing i am trying to accomplish at the moment... maybe the memories have been coming back to prepare me of something else...

C

6 comments:

greg said...

I'm proud of you for doing what you need to do in order to heal. Not everyone would be that strong.

Busy Bee Suz said...

Wowza.
I would be shaking as well C. I do hope this turns positive somehow....hugs, Suz

ChiTown Girl said...

I'll be keeping my finger and toes (but sadly, not my legs!) crossed for you, my sister. I hope this pans out.

jo.irish.rose said...

hey....i hope this turns out positive for you and you both (them and you) get some closure from it. if it comes out. sometimes these things may blow up when they are opened up. if those two have suppressed their feelings and you open them....well, you are a smart cookie, you will just have to step cautiously. i will pray that things will work out for both your healing. for me, when i turned our cousin in, i got closure, but i don't know what happened to the family in canada. the fallout is unknown. since we are not in contact with that part of the family, i had no way of knowing. but whatever you do, with these people, you will know. i love you and whatever you do, i will be right by your side. or behind you, or in front of or between you or somewhere amidst you.....lol. were sisters. so....i will be there with you. je t'aime.

Technodoll said...

oh hun... (( big hugs ))

i know how you feel... i think of ever seeing or hearing about my evil, abusive shithead stepfather and i feel sick... and i hate that these monsters still have power over us so many decades later, how is this possible??

C said...

thanks everyone for your support! you guys rock!