i have been reading up on post traumatic stress disorder and it is possible i could have that. but i have too many childhood traumas to distinguish which ones are to blame... it's possible they all have a part in it, so i have decided to initiate a journal to vent my feelings about it and try to work through what still haunts me. it seems like the right thing for me to do.. i have helped myself enormously in the past via therapy, visualization, and other methods.. i may post a link to my journal down the road, but for now i need to work on it just for me.
my childhood memories are just that- memories... they can't hurt me again as they will never happen again.. somewhere deep within, there must be a part of me that still believes they can... but it's just my own fear that keeps me in chains, i am a prisoner of my own making and it is time to set myself free... i am the only one who can.
hello, God? it's me, Christine..
can we talk?