i know many of you are worried about me due to my prior post. i just want you to know that although i have had to deal with a heartbreaking situation, i will be alright. i have been able to find my hope, faith, and strength once again. i will not allow anything to send me so far into the darkness again. i was in such pain and i did not want to go on. no, i was not suicidal.... but if you have ever been there, it's the first thought one has of a way out of the pain. its not that you want to die, actually.... you just want the pain to stop, and hope to appear. i was overwhelmed with sadness and pain, and lost my focus and direction. i am still working on that which sent me to the darkness and i know now i will come out into the light. god and i have been having alot of talks lately, and although i am not one to hear his voice speak to me, i do feel answers and i do know in my heart when things will be OK. that's enough for me right now. i will post more when i can. just wanted to update my bloggy friends.