"...wE mUst bE thE chAnGe wE wiSh tO sEE iN thE wOrld..." K.G.

8/14/2012

YES! I am still a blogger. Been having bleeding issues with my nose due to the Coumadin I have to be on. Also, have been keeping to myself lately, thinking of what to do for my future, and applying for jobs.

My voice has not been right since the heart surgery, I attribute it to being intubated for 3 days after the surgery, but kept fully awake. I was too ill for them to put me out. At one point there were 3 tubes down my throat. It was the most horrible thing I have ever lived through. At first, I had no voice. Certain days it vacillates from a whisper to raspy, and everything in between except for normal. As some of you know, my voice has become my work, meaning since I can no longer do floor nursing, I have to resort to a desk job, using my voice as a triage nurse. I am going to see an ENT doctor to see if my vocal chords are damaged or what the deal is.

There is also some family drama taking place which I will omit the details, however I can say that my heart is broken over it. I have tried everything in my power to fix this ongoing problem, to no avail. I place it in God's hands, as I do all my problems and gratitude.

I have been feasting on the fresh fruits of summer, raspberries, blueberries, cantaloupe, peaches, plums, etc... My taste buds are still off and I am still waiting for them to get back to normal. I can't seem to eat anything with a red sauce, not even pizza, and a bunch of other foods as well. What I really miss though, is having a place to grill out.

Wish I had a balcony, at least. My last home had everything I wanted, a fenced in yard, pool, fire pit... I enjoyed living there for 4 years. All good things eventually come to an end, but at least I had what I consider paradise for awhile.

My bowl of Greek blueberry yogurt with fresh blueberries mixed in, awaits me.

Happy eating's!

C

4 comments:

greg said...

I'm really sorry that life is giving you such a hard time. Family drama on top of health and financial issues are the last thing you need. I'm glad you're still blogging and thank you for updating. Stay well.

ChiTown Girl said...

Aw, sugar, I'm sorry about the drama. I guess life would be pretty boring without drama, though, so I guess you should embrace it. :P

Wow, I had no idea you were having problems with your voice like that. That sucks. I hope the ENT can figure it out.

If you need to vent, or need a shoulder to cry on, you know where I am.

xoxox

jo.irish.rose said...

poor lil crotte de choux. i hope everything will work all the wrinkles out. i am praying for you every day, my toone. i love you so much. wish i could do more. things will turn around soon, you will see. my lil dwindling toone. i am enjoying watermelon from bogue sound, it is a local treat here, seedless and sweet, and i think of you, floating in your pool. lol :o)

Clippy Mat said...

I just CAN NOT imagine being awake with tubes down my throat. Nightmare! It must have been horrible. You've come so far.
I hope your voice issues will be resolved, and soon.
hugs
:D