...just a quickie update, I have been at orientation from 8 to 4:30 every day so far and will be all this week. there is SO much to learn, I hope I can manage it all and at some point in the near future, I hope it all clicks into place. right now it's overwhelming & seems like just a bunch of facts, rules, & procedures.. I know at some point it will all click and make sense.
everyone I have met has been nice, however there are a few nurses in my classes who will be going into OB, like I used to do. I found myself crying in the bathroom, because I wish I could go back to that. it was my dream job. now I feel the grief setting in as it becomes clearer every day that I can no longer do that kind of nursing. maybe in the back of my mind I was still hoping to be able to do that again, but the truth is very harsh on me right now. they say time heals everything, but I think that OB will always be my in my heart and soul, I miss it terribly.
well, its time for bed. which is odd for me to even write, because I am used to being up most of the night. 5 years ago I never would of thought I'd be where I am in life, today.