"...wE mUst bE thE chAnGe wE wiSh tO sEE iN thE wOrld..." K.G.

8/16/2011

...just a quickie update, I have been at orientation from 8 to 4:30 every day so far and will be all this week. there is SO much to learn, I hope I can manage it all and at some point in the near future, I hope it all clicks into place. right now it's overwhelming & seems like just a bunch of facts, rules, & procedures.. I know at some point it will all click and make sense.

everyone I have met has been nice, however there are a few nurses in my classes who will be going into OB, like I used to do. I found myself crying in the bathroom, because I wish I could go back to that. it was my dream job. now I feel the grief setting in as it becomes clearer every day that I can no longer do that kind of nursing. maybe in the back of my mind I was still hoping to be able to do that again, but the truth is very harsh on me right now. they say time heals everything, but I think that OB will always be my in my heart and soul, I miss it terribly.

well, its time for bed. which is odd for me to even write, because I am used to being up most of the night. 5 years ago I never would of thought I'd be where I am in life, today.

C

4 comments:

ChiTown Girl said...

Glad to hear things are going ok so far.

Dontcha wonder where you'll be 5 years from NOW? Nobody knows. I just hope that wherever you are, you're happy.

Jude said...

Going back to work? congrats to you! I'm sorry I've fallen behind in the happenings of blogland.
I know how you feel about not being able to work where your passion is...I have the same thing going on with my work. I keep thinking (and looking) on how to make it change so I'm a little closer to what I would like to be doing.
Hugs to you.

Busy Bee Suz said...

I am so sorry you are still feeling this grief for the OB dept...hopefully while you aquire these new skills, you will feel needed in other areas.
Keep up the good work sweetie.
How is Chris????
xoxo

jo.irish.rose said...

Pauvre stite toone!! I wish it was going better for you!! But soon it will be all over and you will be in your nice office and comfy and fixing it up. You will see. It is just all this other crap that you have to do to get to the good stuffs. Poor lil crotte. Take your meds and rest at night. And during the day take your ibuprofen and hopefully that will get you through. I love you so much and I am so proud of all you have done and accomplished in your state. You are an inspiration to me. Your lil gimpy sister. Lol muah!!