Diane just left to take Jo to the airport and i cant believe how emotional i am.. crying like a baby here. i didn't go along because i am hurting. it has been so nice having her here, and i wish she didn't have to leave.
i have developed cellulitis on my abdomen where the mass is. as i was looking over the paperwork from the ER, it states on there (back on Monday) that i have cellulitis, yet the bastard dr. didn't start me on anti-biotics. i should have been admitted and i don't know where my mind was but i surely wasn't thinking clearly and didn't look closely through my paperwork until this morning. i am so mad.. this will mean a longer, more expensive, and most likely more painful recovery for me. i am seeing my regular dr. this morning and hopefully I'll be taken care of. i am so sick and tired and worn out from everything that i have been through these last months and i am fed up. it is catching up with me.
although i still have people around me that love me, i feel very much alone in this. with Jo leaving it makes it worse. i apologize for being such a Debbie downer but that's where i am at right now. you guys have been a great support and i appreciate that.