"...wE mUst bE thE chAnGe wE wiSh tO sEE iN thE wOrld..." K.G.

7/23/2010

Diane just left to take Jo to the airport and i cant believe how emotional i am.. crying like a baby here. i didn't go along because i am hurting. it has been so nice having her here, and i wish she didn't have to leave.

i have developed cellulitis on my abdomen where the mass is. as i was looking over the paperwork from the ER, it states on there (back on Monday) that i have cellulitis, yet the bastard dr. didn't start me on anti-biotics. i should have been admitted and i don't know where my mind was but i surely wasn't thinking clearly and didn't look closely through my paperwork until this morning. i am so mad.. this will mean a longer, more expensive, and most likely more painful recovery for me. i am seeing my regular dr. this morning and hopefully I'll be taken care of. i am so sick and tired and worn out from everything that i have been through these last months and i am fed up. it is catching up with me.

although i still have people around me that love me, i feel very much alone in this. with Jo leaving it makes it worse. i apologize for being such a Debbie downer but that's where i am at right now. you guys have been a great support and i appreciate that.

C

7 comments:

ChiTown Girl said...

Oh, for fuck's sake, C, I can't believe this. I wish I could just jump on a plane and come down there right now. You poor baby. I wish there was something I could do for you. :(

greg said...

You go right ahead and let yourself feel bad and cry. You are allowed to do that. We'll be here to listen and to try our best to let you feel our love and strength.

Jason, as himself said...

Ahhhh, I'm sorry you're going through this. Please feel free to vent here because, hey! It's your blog and you'll cry if you want to. We'll still love you just the same.

joe said...

Who's Jo??? Sorry, but I haven't been making the rounds like I used to..

Technodoll said...

Anybody in your shoes would have a broken heart and a good cry in this situation, it's normal hun... If I send you a virtual poutine would that help? wrapped in a hug?

Hope you sleep well tonight... and tomorrow is another day that you will conquer with strength and grace, as you always do xoxoxo

Tracey Axnick said...

Wow... just now getting caught up on these posts. I can't believe the ER doc. Borderline malpractice....
I hope you can get that mass taken care of quickly. And they give you GOOD pain meds so you can recuperate quickly and with as little pain as posible.

So sorry you're going through this, hon. You have been through the RINGER lately. I think you're due for some GOOD luck!

jo.irish.rose said...

pauvre stite crotte....im on a plane coming right back....well, maybe in a few months....or years, i still have that migraine....but lets not talk about me! wth???? they were supposed to fix you not break you worserer.....pardon my french! i thought you would be all better! i guess they don't do so well over there....so you did see your regular guy? im sooo happy....that other dude was such a dork. well good meds, lots of rest, bunch of healthy nutricious yummy eats....and you'll be right as rain in no time. you can come out and see me then. your turn. k? my trip out there was the bestest ever....i had soooo much fun, even with your alien living in you....first week i was sick, then it was you.....it wouldnt be a vacay without a coupla ER visits now would it? so we got several in....just like the old times. and i am hoping to see your debut singing video on here....so all your blogging buddies can help by asking you to post it....she is a WONDERFUL BEAUTIFUL SINGER, and diane and i have the 20 minute concert she performed for us, you guys have the privilege to view FREE of charge! WHEEEEEEEE! diane will post later!!!! i love you toone, glad your doing better, and they rid you of your alien.....i could of done that for you had i known....lol!!! FREE! ROFL! thanks for showing me such a good time as always! your the bestest in the whole world! i love you! (i forgot to use my other writer blog!)