peRspEctiVe...

i want to apologize for my negative last few posts but peeps it is kicking my ass! all of you have been so supportive and it really helps me, thank you.

if loving you is wrong then i don't wanna be right i mean you are all right in the fact that i have to stay positive. things could be alot worse. [please god, no]. and this is my chance to see what my writing can do.

i have to believe [and most days i do] that all this that's happening is a blessing in disguise. i am meant to move onto something else, something i deserve and will be happy with. i am so right there giving this same advice to others but find it hard to apply it to myself. don't we all, though..

the truth is i am not ready to go back to work, my arm isn't strong enough and i can use this time off i have, wisely. before i wrote this i cleaned the kitchen. big deal you might say but no, you peeps don't know how slacking i have been around here, leaving Diane to do everything and she does because she loves me... but its time to get back to the me i used to be...

i have lived through worse than this shit and I'll be damned if i am going to let this keep me down any longer. everything WILL work out for me, it WILL.

i have always wanted to be a writer. i have tons of pages of poetry i have written years ago, and 2 short children's books... i have been afraid of rejection and haven't ever pursued that part of me, but its time to do that.

whatever's meant to be, will be.

i feel like i have a bloggy family and would have such a void if you weren't there. i have become attached to many of you, and i honestly care about what happens in your lives. be well, everyone. i am FOLLOWING you!

crp