there used to be a drive-in here the next town over. we have ALWAYS loved going. when the kids were little [after the divorce] we would pack up a picnic and grab chairs, pillows and blankets... park in the front row, and get all comfy cozy snuggled up together in front of our car. we'd get to watch 2-3 movies for the price of one adult ticket [$5.00], and kids were free. we always went in the spring and the fall, before the bugs came out and the heat set in. the little food kitchen would fill the air with the recognisable, mouth watering aromas of french fries, burgers, hot dogs, popcorn, and pizza. even when we brought our own food i always purchased a lil somethin somethin for the kiddies.... they were irresistible, those smells, wafting around on the soft breezes of the night air. and for whatever reason, drive-in food was the best. [maybe because we ate it outdoors]. we would eat until we couldn't anymore. when it was just the four of them and me... i felt like i had my whole world right there within the embrace of my arms. we had the moon most nights shining down on us amidst the stars. i kept them safe. i nurtured them. i took care of them. and i loved them.... with all the love stored in my heart and soul from all of my life before them. we were in our own little world, the five of us. and i have never been happier and more at peace than i was at those times... when they needed me, and relied on me for every little thing in their world. if i could have frozen time and lingered in it's innocence and purity forever with my children, i would have. i was and will always be..... their mama. nothing else will ever surpass what that has and still means to me. when i am old and my body fails me, when i can no longer see to read or hear to play music, i will bask in the memories i have kept in my heart, for such a time.