it has been a family filled weekend for me.... and i have SO enjoyed it. Friday afternoon Diane, my sister, and i went to see the movie "knowing" and i thought it was a great movie. then my grandson Julian came to spend the night. we had alot of fun playing with him and watching cartoons. he slept with us and we snuggled all night. Saturday, we went to the zoo and had lunch there. my youngest son works in the restaurant so we were able to see him. after the zoo, we did some grocery shopping, which Julian enjoyed cuz they had samples for him to try. once we were done, Diane and i took him to the children's museum, where my other son works so we were able to see him. Julian loves going there. he rode the hovercraft, as that's the department my son worked in today. we arrived home just in time for my daughter to pick him up before dinner. Diane and i were exhausted... sat back and had a few beers, discussing all we had done. i made dinner. my oldest son & one of his friends came to eat with us. we spent some quality time with them. by 9pm, everything was quiet again. i am in awe of how much living i have done in the last 24 hours. i spent some time with each of my children, my sister, and grandson. i am filled with happy... and if i had any energy left, i would do the happy dance.... as i write this, Diane is asleep on the couch and i am feeling the warmth of the love i am blessed to have in my life.

Sunday i am making a pot roast and my oldest

son and his friend will join us for Sunday dinner.

more happy.
when i first injured my shoulder

[which is healing nicely, BTW]

i felt alot of fear about my situation. i was worried about how we would survive, yet we have. i was concerned about having to have surgery, yet my rotator cuff has healed with rest, and physical therapy 3 times a week. my next doctor's appointment is on 4-21. he will decide at that time whether i can return to work without restrictions or not. i think he will release me... and i can begin to get my life back in a routine. i was thinking earlier how much this time off has meant to me, to spend with my family and just rest. i think i had been so weary from all the OT i had worked this past year.... i didn't realise how run down i had become. i have been able to take long walks with Diane and our doggie. we have been able to be lazy and watch alot of movies.... cook little lunches just for us..... and i really think this break has turned into a blessing in disguise. it reminds me once again that everything happens for a reason, even when my fears get the best of me, and that god always does provide for my children and i. such a simple lesson that is so easily forgotten when i let myself slip into fear and mistrust. once again, i am reminded to trust, SPECIALLY with the unknown.

so i ask you this, my friends....

can someone please kick me in the ass,

pull out the hairs on my chinny chin chin

and remind me of what i said just now...

if i ever find myself in a similar situation?

crp