"...wE mUst bE thE chAnGe wE wiSh tO sEE iN thE wOrld..." K.G.


it has been a family filled weekend for me.... and i have SO enjoyed it. Friday afternoon Diane, my sister, and i went to see the movie "knowing" and i thought it was a great movie. then my grandson Julian came to spend the night. we had alot of fun playing with him and watching cartoons. he slept with us and we snuggled all night. Saturday, we went to the zoo and had lunch there. my youngest son works in the restaurant so we were able to see him. after the zoo, we did some grocery shopping, which Julian enjoyed cuz they had samples for him to try. once we were done, Diane and i took him to the children's museum, where my other son works so we were able to see him. Julian loves going there. he rode the hovercraft, as that's the department my son worked in today. we arrived home just in time for my daughter to pick him up before dinner. Diane and i were exhausted... sat back and had a few beers, discussing all we had done. i made dinner. my oldest son & one of his friends came to eat with us. we spent some quality time with them. by 9pm, everything was quiet again. i am in awe of how much living i have done in the last 24 hours. i spent some time with each of my children, my sister, and grandson. i am filled with happy... and if i had any energy left, i would do the happy dance.... as i write this, Diane is asleep on the couch and i am feeling the warmth of the love i am blessed to have in my life.
Sunday i am making a pot roast and my oldest
son and his friend will join us for Sunday dinner.
more happy.
when i first injured my shoulder
[which is healing nicely, BTW]
i felt alot of fear about my situation. i was worried about how we would survive, yet we have. i was concerned about having to have surgery, yet my rotator cuff has healed with rest, and physical therapy 3 times a week. my next doctor's appointment is on 4-21. he will decide at that time whether i can return to work without restrictions or not. i think he will release me... and i can begin to get my life back in a routine. i was thinking earlier how much this time off has meant to me, to spend with my family and just rest. i think i had been so weary from all the OT i had worked this past year.... i didn't realise how run down i had become. i have been able to take long walks with Diane and our doggie. we have been able to be lazy and watch alot of movies.... cook little lunches just for us..... and i really think this break has turned into a blessing in disguise. it reminds me once again that everything happens for a reason, even when my fears get the best of me, and that god always does provide for my children and i. such a simple lesson that is so easily forgotten when i let myself slip into fear and mistrust. once again, i am reminded to trust, SPECIALLY with the unknown.
so i ask you this, my friends....
can someone please kick me in the ass,
pull out the hairs on my chinny chin chin
and remind me of what i said just now...
if i ever find myself in a similar situation?


ChiTown Girl said...

Girlfriend, I will be FIRST in line to remind you!! I hope to find the same peace and joy over these next two weeks that I'm off. I'm so excited!

Busy Bee Suz said...

I will kick you in the A** if that is what you need. ;)
Sounds like a perfect family/love filled weekend. wouldn't it be nice if they were all like that? Well..I suppose if they were all like that then we would NOT appreciate it when it happens.

Enjoy the pot roast!!!

Technodoll said...

yes, we promise to try!! but i think this valuable life lesson will be with you for always, it's part of you now and you can't take all these good things back (we won't let you, ha ha!).

i love hearing about happy times, good food, company, family and love - keep it coming :-))

La Roo said...

Wow you made me tired just hearing all of the fun goings on. I'm happy to see things are on the upswing and you're seeming to be in a comfort zone.
Just the fact that you are aware of your fears means you're a step ahead. I'm sure people will be happy to help, but you are becoming a strong person that will recognize when to (put on your big girl panties and deal with what life brings.) You are a beautiful person inside and out and you need to be ok with yourself.
Take care.

Clippy Mat said...

yay. good for you.
i love the happy.