"...wE mUst bE thE chAnGe wE wiSh tO sEE iN thE wOrld..." K.G.

2/12/2009

i have just gotten up for the day. i had gone to bed early last night as i was in an obvious bad mood, and so tired. thought i would check in on my bloggie friends and see what's new. i have just spent the last hour reading a couple of blogs i found via another blog, one's about a beautiful 12 year old girl, and the other about a 3 year old little boy who died from cancer, within the last 2 years. i stared at their pictures for a long time, finding it hard to believe that they are gone. the eyes, so full of life.... the soft, smiling faces, how could such a thing happen to these angels, and why..... WHY, GOD? it was almost unbearable to look at them. my heart is in pieces as i read the heart wrenching journals of the parents who continue to struggle to live on without their precious beautiful angels. i am in awe of the strength they have to do so. honestly, i know i couldn't do it. they have way more faith, courage, strength, and the will to live, than i. i gather these precious people up with all of their pain and sadness, and place them in god's loving hands. i don't know what else to say or do with them. now they will be a part of my blog world, and right now i feel SO ashamed for all the complaining i have done about my own mundane life with my puny little problems that will never compare to what these people and others like them, have already gone through. i have truly forgotten to appreciate what i have, and what each new day brings.
i have been humbled.

before today, i was this big..... ME... now i am this big... me.

CRP


11 comments:

Busy Bee Suz said...

I agree....It is always easy to get a slap of reality when we see others who are hurting more than we. And there is ALWAYS someone worse off.
It is ok to feel crappy and complain though...we are human.
take care,
suz

Technodoll said...

Hun, other people's misery does not diminish anything in our own lives. Yes it sometimes helps to realise all our blessings, but when the chips are down it's ok to rant about it too. That's what friends are for... to listen and wait until you are back on your feet again and then you go out and have a martini and laugh again. :-)

Chloie said...

I can't imagine the pain of losing a child. It must be the parents' worst nightmare. But it's okay to wallow about our own problems from time to time. As Bee Suz said we're only humans. Just don't forget to count your blessings.

ChiTown Girl said...

what they all said...

I'm with you, though, on that subject. I can not, for even one minute, fathom what it must be like to lose a child. My son is actually honoring a young girl who lost her battle with cancer on his page for the fundraiser. I found out about her from my friend Smileygirl's blog (Is that the girl you read about?) It hasn't posted yet, cuz we're waiting for her mom's consent form to be received. Her story broke my heart, and I shared it with him, so he decided to honor her.

Miles To Go Before I Sleep...... said...

Hello! New reader here ;-)

I really enjoyed this post...

I have lost one I loved before...

However, I could not ever fathom losing a child. I have made it through the spousal part, but a child... NO.

And yes, I hope it reminds you everyday of how much life has to offer and how small our complaints are compared to others...

I too have been humbled before :-) And honestly, it makes me happy to know that I can be humbled. It's good to feel human.

Much love,
Dana

C said...

hey chichi, no it wasnt that poor dear your son knows. that is so sad. it was through suz's blog, on gerger. her daughter died of neuroblastoma, she was so beautiful. if you go there, look into her eyes. it'll getcha. i do not understand things like that. i never have, and never will. thats why i cant be a pediatric nurse. just not made to handle stuff like that.


C

C said...

welcome dana. its nice to meet you.


C

C said...

by the way you guys, the photo i have with this entry is made out of sand. yeah SAND! on a beach. isnt it awesome?

C

ChiTown Girl said...

C, that IS the same girl - Katie. Isn't she just beautiful!? If you really want to sob your eyes out, go back and read through Karen's entire blog, and then go over to Katie's CareBridge site, and read that. She was one special girl, that's for sure. That's why Studly decided to honor her. I hope it's up on his page by this weekend.

C said...

oh my god. wow, cheech. i will read it. thank you. i cant wait to see studly's site, too.

random moments said...

Wow, things like that put everything into perspective. Sometimes when I'm having a pity party I make myself think of how there's always someone else who is having a worse day. Or life. *sigh*