i have just gotten up for the day. i had gone to bed early last night as i was in an obvious bad mood, and so tired. thought i would check in on my bloggie friends and see what's new. i have just spent the last hour reading a couple of blogs i found via another blog, one's about a beautiful 12 year old girl, and the other about a 3 year old little boy who died from cancer, within the last 2 years. i stared at their pictures for a long time, finding it hard to believe that they are gone. the eyes, so full of life.... the soft, smiling faces, how could such a thing happen to these angels, and why..... WHY, GOD? it was almost unbearable to look at them. my heart is in pieces as i read the heart wrenching journals of the parents who continue to struggle to live on without their precious beautiful angels. i am in awe of the strength they have to do so. honestly, i know i couldn't do it. they have way more faith, courage, strength, and the will to live, than i. i gather these precious people up with all of their pain and sadness, and place them in god's loving hands. i don't know what else to say or do with them. now they will be a part of my blog world, and right now i feel SO ashamed for all the complaining i have done about my own mundane life with my puny little problems that will never compare to what these people and others like them, have already gone through. i have truly forgotten to appreciate what i have, and what each new day brings.
i have been humbled.
before today, i was this big..... ME... now i am this big... me.