I cant shake the weepies tonight. I tried. and now, I’m up alone and the old “ache” in my soul is back. it feels like I am longing desperately for something but I have not ever been able to identify what it is I am longing for…
I can feel it manifest itself physically, as I have pain in the center of my chest that aches deep inside. some one I used to date named Lois was native American, and we dated for over 3 years. when I felt this way, she’d have me lay down then proceeded to rub and massage in circles in the center of my chest..
she said it was my chakra, and she would soothe it, and realign it somehow just by gentle touching and pulling out invisible “stuff” that she said was causing me the pain. I’d close my eyes and relax, listening to the music of the Indian flute playing softly whilst she did this..
the whole process would last about 30-60 mins. I could actually feel something electrically tingly being pulled from me… possibly an energy of some kind. when she was done, the pain was gone. for that reason only, I wish she were in my life to come over and work her magic…
native Americans are very spiritual people, at least most of them are.. and I truly believe they can get in touch with something spiritual because every time she did this, my pain would be gone.
alas, there's nothing I can do tonight but feel what I feel, and go to bed to try to sleep, hoping it’s gone when I wake up.