hi peeps... just when i thought things were going ok and i was on vaycay for 4 months... the shit hits the fan once more in my life. last Friday when i saw my new doc that i like, he had ordered a stress echo test for me due to intermittent tightness and shortness of breath I'd been having. well, i had that test this morning.
did you know they sandpapered the spots on my chest where the leads go to monitor my heart? hell yeah, baby.. i said
WTF you doing, bitch... hey what is that, it kinda hurts a lil and the tech showed me that she had sandpaper and i said well, please don't sand my tan off.. then once my skin was nice and raw she wiped it down with alcohol. that fucking burned like fire. it stung a lil...
i lasted one and a half minutes on the treadmill until i felt faint and winded... turns out i have a blockage in one of my arteries, mild atrial stenosis in one of valves, and i am having a heart cath. tomorrow morning @ 1000. if the blockage is too big, or not in a good spot to repair, i will have to have a C.A.B.G. which is open heart by-pass surgery.
the doc said he wont know if its fixable or how bad it is until he gets in there tomorrow. if he can place the stent, i will have to spend the night in the ICU unit for observation... i said, WHA? do i look THAT cute when i sleep that they wanna watch? weirdoes..
fucking believe this is happening to me? i can't. it has literally been one thing after another and this just tops the cake. i will deal with whatever happens after this but come on, man... enough is enough.
i want to ask you peeps to pray they are able to fix my blockage tomorrow so i don't have to have my chest opened. fucking open heart surgery will just ruin my delicate cleavage..
[yes, that is moi]
i have such anxiety about the procedure tomorrow that i asked the doc for some ativan. he thought i said buy me a mini van and said, sorry but no. kiddin. he gave me a script for some... which i will take to sleep tonight and in the morning. I'll be brave once i get there, it's the waiting that is always the hard part for me.
i just want to continue my vaycay without any other problems... THIS is what I'd rather be doing...
or even this...
but please, just PLEASE don't cut me chest open!