my 2 sons who still live at home
and will until they are 40 are at a fork in the road of their lives. they are both questioning their original career choice, and contemplating something else.... something they feel stronger about than what they first thought. i told them it is their life, and whatever they choose to do, they will be great at. i also told them to make big bucks for my travels in my old age follow the desire of their hearts, to think of something they would enjoy doing SO much they would still go in to work even if they call me crazy didn't need the money. in essence, "do what you love and the money will follow" [Louise Hayes].
think i do not know anything are frustrated. they are impatient lil buggers that i could just slap confused and want the answer right now. they want to be there already.
i know that impatient angst. i had it myself when i put myself through college, when they were little. if i had given in to my impatience
and become a stripper at the playhouse and gone full time to complete my bachelor's in nursing, i would have made So much more money... erm, well if i had the body for such a thing... missed out on so much precious time spent studying my ass off with sleep deprivation making memories with them, when they were little. instead, i chose to go to college part time, so i would have more time with them. i do not regret that. yes, it took me longer 6.5 years but it was worth it.
how do you explain that to a
stubborn headed know-it-all teenager who wants it all and wants it right now? they think i don't understand but i do. why do teens think they are the first ones to ever feel the way they do and that old people such as parents could not possibly understand?
god, give me the patience to hold my tongue when all i want to do is
nag-nag-nag and make them do it my way give advice. please give me the courage not to maim them before they leave home to let go and trust that you have your hand on the scruff of their necks their future.
and god, if you really are listening
i can only hope please let me win the lottery so i don't have to work anymore. after all, you KNOW how much i would deserve enjoy a trip to your beautiful beaches to bask in the hot sun.. and visit those cute lil fruit and veggie markets in small villages in France and Italy.
but most of all, please guide my 4 children to discover what they were sent here to be. they are so cornfused
all of the time right now.