this will be my last entry for 2008. actually, it hasn't been a bad year for me and mine. 2008 brought me much love, some heartache, some growth (we always need growth), a lot of good memories, new friends, some additions to my family, some letting go of painful events, new insight into past memories and how it affects the present, and deep knowing and assurance that we are not alone. i have loved and hated then forgiven and accepted. i have begun an inner healing on a new level. i have grieved for the state of the world and how people treat each other... and i have learned to keep reminding myself to remain centered in my own little corner of life so as not to be broken by the heartache on this planet which is being inflicted on people and animals. i MISS.
i NEED. i WANT. i GIVE. i ACCEPT. i FEAR.
i SURRENDER. i LOVE. and i have FAITH.
i have been given a glimpse of my own mortality, and realize i cannot change such things. i believe in God more than ever. but i will have more questions to ask him. to sum everything up, all of these feelings i claim, are what make me human. they drive me to live yet one more day. and what more should i want out of life than to experience humanity in every way possible, then try to do something to make it better. i think we all do what we can, with what we have. our generosity and concern should not be measured by the amount or value of what we give is, but simply for the fact that we care enough to give what we can.
may 2009 be as meaningful.